Today stayed at home the whole day , my mother didn't allow me to go for the NE picnic so never mind . I'm trying to be contented with everything that I have so I'm not blaming God that my mother didn't let me go . And I also had to honour my parents right ? So yeah , morning fasted , afternoon broke fast , then about 3 I started my bible study I didn't want to rush this time round cause I really want to read intently and not miss out any detail , but after reading chapter 3 of Acts I started to feel tired... Yeah , not that it was boring but I was really tired and because raining so you find it easier to sleep . I was so proud of myself cause last night I finally finished the book of Luke ! XD Anyway so when I read chapter 4 & 5 actually didn't even know what I reading , I reading half way I dose off like 1 minute then I realise I fell asleep then woke up and continue reading then like going to fall then wake up then when I finish reading I planed to note down what I've learnt but was too tired so I decided to sleep then wake up and read through again . And I think I slept for two hours ? But was still quite tired but I still pulled myself out of bed to read again roughly and write down what I've learnt . And Acts 2 they talked about the holy spirit so I was encouraged to pray for the holy spirit again . Because it was very long time ago when I tried to pray for the holy spirit but this time I really thought I would be able to speak because I really prayed long and hard and I really really asked God for it . But I didn't succeed but it's okay larh so after that I went to eat dinner . My mother stayed home the whole day too , she didn't have to work , don't know why but anyway she made muffins and cookies ! <3 ! Hahahaha , then I actually forget about practising my guitar... ._. AND , what's worst was after eating I realised I forgot to say grace , I WAS SO SHOCKED YOU KNOW ! But I think cause I was abit not full woken up yet and was abit down that I still can't speak in tongues . I felt so stupid -.- ! Anyway , tomorrow still not sure if I'm serving usher because Wenzen told me to invite someone cause she said that God wanted me to , so I tried sms-ing my contacts but till now still no reply , so if not reply I'll ask one of my best friend , been trying to get her to come for ages . So see if anyone replys or is willing to come if not I'll serve usher tomorrow . I don't know why larh but when I'm not with my lifegroup or doing some church activity I'll feel down and lonely , I won't feel God's presence I don't if I think too much or because I'm too much of a people person ? Like the person has to be physically here... Yeah and like I don't know how to put it but I feel like I was back in those days that when I haven't met Jesus yet , the days where I had no life . But cause you know Wenzhen always seem so joyful all the time you know ? Once someone told me happiness last for only that moment but joy from God lasts forever . You can feel joy at any time when there's nothing to be joyful about . And even one of my best friends , she has known christ since young . Her name is Jasmine and she's always in a good mood you know ? And I'm still wondering why I can't be like them I can't feel joyful all the time 24/7 . Only twice have I felt that overwhelming presence of God , that unexplainable feeling you get . I guess it was cause I felt insecured and He comforted me . So yeah , sian , NO ONE REPLIED YET and apprently my best friend is not in Singapore -.- ? Haiz...
Fiona praised Jesus at 5:11 AM
PROFILE;
Fiona Krissie Teh
Deyi secondary School
6th June 1996
Child of God
Hope Church(Youth)
fcyf1996@hotmail.com(MSN/Facebook)
The Girl;
I love God,my family,friends & everyone else .
I'm currently serving in the usher ministry .
My shepherd is Chua Wenzhen Joy .
My care group is NEA1 .
I'm trying to learn the guitar .
My cca is drama .
Life Transformation;
Before I knew God , I was a petty,
Impatient,spoiled,ungrateful,unreasonable,ah lian wanna-be.
I had no dreams , no idea where I was heading and no purpose.
But I didn't want to be alive for no reason.
I've always thought that I was useless.
It would have been better that I wasn't alive.
But I didn't want to die just yet.
Because I knew that life was precious.
I continued to search for meaning,purpose and reasons.
And last christmas I was invited to Yhope.
I grew up in a catholic school.
I knew God then but I never had a relationship with Him.
At that time , my results were already out and my school was already chosen.
I was going to Deyi.
At first I wasn't really committed to God.
And I had some parental objection.
But Wenzhen was assigned to be my shepherd.
She helped me to overcome my objection and she encouraged me to be more committed.
And she never gave up on me , she is one of the reasons why I've changed so much.
Yes she's naggy but it's really great to have a shepherd like her.
And I thought of it , somehow everything linked.
I never studied for PSLE but I got 220.
I was never accepted in Holy Innocent.
But in Deyi.
My god sister asked me to come but she never made it in.
At first it was hard.
But I got used to it.
Everything made sense to me.
Why I scored how much I scored.
Why I came Deyi.
Why my mother allowed me to go out that day.
If I hadn't gone out with my friends.
I would have never met Hui Xuan,Chantel or Grace they all.
I would have not converted.
And I wouldn't have what I have today.
Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you
Seek the LORD your God,
You will find him if you
Look for Him with all your heart
And will all your soul.
I searched for God.
And He made a way for me.
He had a better plan for me.
It was just the beginning of a new found life.
I want to dedicate this blog to God.
All of you who hasn't known God yet.
I really encourage you to do so.
It will really be the best decision you ever make.
He will never leave nor forsake you.
He will never short change you.
He will never fail you.
Psalm 118:1
Give thanks to the Lord,
for He is good;
His Love endures forever.
