I'll be going to wordpress.com , I just want to try it out . So yeah , don't think I'll be posting here again . Btw , my link will be ,'www.lifetransformation.wordpress.com' .
BYES !
Fiona praised Jesus at 5:10 AM
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sorry;
I feel guilty and I'm sorry for letting you done, for not doing my best, for continuing on with my mistakes... You don't deserve all these crap and I'm sorry for taking you for granted, I should know better.. I feel like breaking out in tears, I feel like crap and I don't know what the hell I'm doing . And seriously , I'm going up and down all the time now . "You can hae emotions but you cannot be emotional" And I agree with Gideon and I feel super emotional these few days .
Fiona praised Jesus at 5:20 AM
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Mysteries;
It's been ages since I've blogged but anyway , many things happened , people come and people go , issit for the better ? I don't know , what I do know that , it's heart-breaking to see people go , I feel like it's my fault cause I didn't do anything to stop it , or maybe I made it worst , maybe I was the one who caused them to cross over the line and never come back . Why do people leave ? I wish I knew , I feel sorry and not only do I feel sorry but guitly for not doing my best to have saved her . It was my fault for neglecting her , for not having the spirit of excellence and now , she's gone . I'm responsible for many of the people who have walked away , why was I so selfish ? I feel as if there's too many people and I can't catter to every single one of their needs . Issit that there's not enough time in the world , or issit that I can't find time ? I told myself that I would manage my time better but I don't know if it's getting better or worst . There's so many things to be done and I just want to do them all , chase all my dreams and at the same time , I'm able to serve God . I can't remember the last time I went out with non-believers and in really plan and go out with them . I feel disconnected from the world that people live without God , I feel that I need to bring them over to God's world , with God's poeple and with everything so good you know ? I need a break but I don't think I can , if I have a break , everything becomes chaos and I'll be behind schedule...
Goal : Find the balance .
Fiona praised Jesus at 5:42 AM
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Drained Out;
Wow.. So many projects, so much has happened... I'm feeling super drained out and stressed ! But I know I can't give up now since I've gone such a long way and NEA is about to start restructure tomorrow . And Usher Ministry also going through restructure , I'm still stuck with Wenzhen... Weird lor ! Anyway , manage to spend time with Wenzhen on Saturday morning . Had informal and formal shepherding at Macs . Yeah , and Jie Fang accepted Christ that day ! XD Not only her but also Sherlyn and Clain(Sorry , I've got no clue how to spell his name) . Super happy for them ! Anyway , so appearently Saturday's service was suppose to be the last one as a whole team . I just wished they would have mentioned earlier , SO SAD CAN ?! Yeah , so people come and go... Really want to thank God for Alvina , she has been a great support to me , given me verses and kept reminding me of God . Thanks !
Goal: Don't give up;
Fiona praised Jesus at 4:31 AM
PROFILE;
Fiona Krissie Teh
Deyi secondary School
6th June 1996
Child of God
Hope Church(Youth)
fcyf1996@hotmail.com(MSN/Facebook)
The Girl;
I love God,my family,friends & everyone else .
I'm currently serving in the usher ministry .
My shepherd is Chua Wenzhen Joy .
My care group is NEA1 .
I'm trying to learn the guitar .
My cca is drama .
Life Transformation;
Before I knew God , I was a petty,
Impatient,spoiled,ungrateful,unreasonable,ah lian wanna-be.
I had no dreams , no idea where I was heading and no purpose.
But I didn't want to be alive for no reason.
I've always thought that I was useless.
It would have been better that I wasn't alive.
But I didn't want to die just yet.
Because I knew that life was precious.
I continued to search for meaning,purpose and reasons.
And last christmas I was invited to Yhope.
I grew up in a catholic school.
I knew God then but I never had a relationship with Him.
At that time , my results were already out and my school was already chosen.
I was going to Deyi.
At first I wasn't really committed to God.
And I had some parental objection.
But Wenzhen was assigned to be my shepherd.
She helped me to overcome my objection and she encouraged me to be more committed.
And she never gave up on me , she is one of the reasons why I've changed so much.
Yes she's naggy but it's really great to have a shepherd like her.
And I thought of it , somehow everything linked.
I never studied for PSLE but I got 220.
I was never accepted in Holy Innocent.
But in Deyi.
My god sister asked me to come but she never made it in.
At first it was hard.
But I got used to it.
Everything made sense to me.
Why I scored how much I scored.
Why I came Deyi.
Why my mother allowed me to go out that day.
If I hadn't gone out with my friends.
I would have never met Hui Xuan,Chantel or Grace they all.
I would have not converted.
And I wouldn't have what I have today.
Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you
Seek the LORD your God,
You will find him if you
Look for Him with all your heart
And will all your soul.
I searched for God.
And He made a way for me.
He had a better plan for me.
It was just the beginning of a new found life.
I want to dedicate this blog to God.
All of you who hasn't known God yet.
I really encourage you to do so.
It will really be the best decision you ever make.
He will never leave nor forsake you.
He will never short change you.
He will never fail you.
Psalm 118:1
Give thanks to the Lord,
for He is good;
His Love endures forever.
