I've found a friend who died for me

I haven't been blogging lately , been busy with things and I'm losing track of time , literally . I think that usher retreat is next week but it's tomorrow . Yeah.. And I don't think I'm going anyway... Lately feeling very 'chui' like I don't know , I just feel as if I want to die already . It's not really that I want to give up on God but I just feel like I want to drop everything . When , stress strikes I just feel like giving up , I can't take stress , that is why I never worked hard for anything . Because I know when I give my all for something , I'll have more to do . It's like I want to become a shepherd but I can't take the responsibilities . I feel like my head is going to explode . But I was reminded by God then I can rejoice under any circumstances . But I feel as if the whole world is against me . I just can't do it , without God , everything is impossible . I'm trying to pull it together but.. *Sigh* It's unexplainable . I know God is there but I just can't feel Him . Well I guess what Wenzhen said was true , maybe God is just testing me but I mean I really do believe that He's there but I can't do anything when I can't feel His presence , I feel so weak and useless . After camp I was still quite okay but now , the fire just stopped burning . And I think God also want me to think about why I serve , I guess it's because it's like a responsibility ? I don't know . And I need to learn to not seek recongnition any more , I need to learn to be humble and really think before I speak or act , I seriously think I have many problems... And when I do things , I feel like I'm not doing it with God and I feel like when I don't do things with God then , there's no reason why I'm doing those things . And I really need to manage my time , I feel so caught up in the things I do that I just forget the time and I forget the dead lines to everything . Time flies and I can't catch up with it . And I really need to set my heart right before God , I don't want to have the wrong motives and I just really want to focus on God and nothing else , I feel like I've really let God down and that I'm so stupid to not have woken up earlier . I think why I feel so 'chui' is because , I don't even know why I'm going and I don't fix my eyes on God but on completing the task but sometimes it's not always about finishing the task but the process of finishing it . And I need to manage my money too , in the sense I see if it's worth it anot . And I was reminded of servanthood yesterday during Emily's birthday celebration , when she said ,'Serve others first' And it suddenly struck me , I'm a servant and it's not about how well you serve but how you react or feel when you're being treated like a servant . The other day , Yining said that God uses the tail to lead the head , and it's true , God uses the weak to lead the strong . And I just really need to think through how I'm going to apply all of this .
And Emily's new dog is so CUTEEEEEEEE ! (:

Hmm.. It's Christmas but some how some what , it just doesn't feel like Christmas to me... I don't know why but yeah.. It just felt like a sunday to me . Anyway , I finished my English book reviews because I wanted to go for PHS lifegroup tomorrow . Emily has the coreteam going.. I don't know why though . I still feel as though I'm not living life with God . In the sense that when I do things , I'm not doing it with Him . I finally finished Acts and I'm now reading Romans ! XD Well anyway , the Christmas party yesterday was okay ? I didn't get to go for caroling though . But yeah.. The service yesterday was awesome , because we have three converts , maybe more but I know got no less than three . XD
It's super unspiritual but I really like this guy , he's so nice and caring and super spiritual . He's so funny can , but the depressing thing is I can't talk to him as in I can't talk to him like a friend because my shepherd will kill me but because I don't want to cross the line.. It's I don't know , weird ? It's really driving me crazy !! I'm so missing him.. ):

Wow... I really think that God wants me to be grateful for everything and everyone I have . Things happen so quickly and they can happen at any time . And I really think that God wants me to cherish the people around me and also the things that I have . I mean you don't know what's going to happen and you know it's hard to tell . And today we had lifegroup , we were suppose to go eat first then write Christmas cards then we went for street evangelism , was really fun and a great exprience . I think God really is blessing us with resposive contacts . I was reminded of this verse by God ,
Haggai 2:9
The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,; says the LORD Almighty.'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty.
I really believe that God wants to remind all of us that we shouldn't be discouraged because He'll make a way for us to make the present house more glorious then the previous one . As long as we put in effort then God will help us . And I'm sure He also wants to find His lost sheeps . I've written some cards already but not all . Anyway , tomorrow I can't go for out-reaching , CTM and... Sports day/carolling practice ? Yeah.. Sian , and also I can't go for usher retreat huh . But yeah , really excited for the things to come and next year when I really want to 'chiong' for my studies , I've slacked for one year already and I don't want to slack any more . And I'm going to get myself off of Normilla's blacklist . I really want to change my impression and I really want to be the best I can be for God .

I just remembered something Pastor Shirely said ,'Once you have tasted awesome then okay is nothing' , I totally agree , when we taste God's awesome-ness then we strive for more . And her testimony about her grandfather was amazing.. It really was so cool and like touching . Pre Christmas service was great , really enjoyed it and many people converted . And I hope that YanJunn stays so that she'll be my sheep , so excited ! Anyway , really looking forward to the many things God has installed for me .

Okay lately haven't been online much is cause computer got problem and cause I went for camp . Wow , camp was really really refreshing and I really learnt a lot . One thing that struck me was that I really felt the joy in serving although like I just went round doing my job I really felt joy in serving ad that's how it should be like . When we serve with a glad sincere heart we should feel joy in serving . And also learnt that SOW is not a method of what but it's a lifestyle , we should live life like we're SOW-ing 24/7 and so that's what I've decided to do when Gideon asked us to make a decission on what we want to do after camp . And maybe some of you can tell that I've changed but my parents seem to disagree and not everyone can tell that I'm changing but that's why , I want to live life as if everyone can tell that I'm a child of God and I'm not ashamed of it neither am I afraid to show it . I want to be able to really be a role model for all and also be able to bring God's presence into non-believers' lives and also my family's . And I'm determined that after I've achieved this my parents will change their mentality and image of me so that they'll allow me to go for 11 March 2010's WATER BAPTISM . WOOOOOOOOOOOOO ! Okay , so anyway , I agree with what Gideon said although I missed half of it ? He said that as girls we shouldn't let out emotions get to us and also we shouldn't follow those others girls in gossiping and bringing others down so we feel more superior . That issn't the way God wants us to be and that's not the image we want to give to non-believers and also we should learn to stand on principles like how I learnt in character study . When we stand firm on our principles God will reward us and we'll really be able to affect more people around us . And also like what Pastor Jeff said , 'We can have emotions but we can't be emotional' . Personally I know that I'm a very emotional person , I have problems controlling my emotions because I guess I just.. Am like that ? But I don't want to be like that any more because if I can't let my emotions become my masters for I can't serve two masters like what it says in ,
Matthew 6:24
"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
And I really agree with this so if you see me being too emotional stop me and give me a good lecture and scolding . I also learnt that my shepherd is not my fist aid box but only my map I think that I rely on Wenzhen too much sometimes cause I guess it's very easy to get very comfortable with her cause she's really caring and she always go an extra mile for everyone . But I want to be more independant , and yesterday I opened a can by myself , as in use can opener and open because I very noob one larh , everything also don't know how to do cause I've been spoiled and like I don't know how to do a lot of things . But anyway , now of days I find that I've kept going to her every single little thing that pops up . But our shepherds are there to move us closer to God and not themselves and I think this will be very useful for me when I myself become a shepherd . I really thank God for opening up my eyes to many things and I really thank God for everything that has happened and for everyone around me . There's always a reason why God put us with the people we're with . And there's always something to learn from them or we're there to help or guide them . And Sunny really thought me something , although he hardly had the time to spend with us he was so overjoyed that he could just come and spend a few hours , and I got to come full time , I think God wants to remind me to be grateful about every single little thing that He blesses us with . Be it the food or even everyday that we recieve . And Sunny also mentioned that if Hillsong serves the same God and reads the same bible , if they can influence so many people then why can't we ? I really think it's true and that really encouraged me . And also I was encouraged by this Girl who served usher doing camp , she wanted to join usher but she hasn't gotten any news yet , then we were standing at the same place so we were just getting to know each other better . Then I told her that I can't speak in tongues and it's really been very long because one of my camp objectives was to learn how to speak in tongues but I still can't larh but she told me that she had a very strong prompting from the holy spirit to pray for me . During her prayer she said that I was ready and that she really had a lot of faith in me . I hardly knew her but she had so much faith in me I was really touched by her because she really believed in me and she help me not to upset when I haven't recieved tongues cause if she has so much faith in me then how can I not have faith in myself ? But I really learnt to trust in God and to be contented with what He has blessed me with and what He still is blessing me with . I really enjoyed my time in camp and I had a great time talking to Alvina and Emily , Emily helped me to position myself in someone else's shoes and I finally understand larh why this person is this way and I can't blame her and like I remember that the hillsong guy said that 'who are we to judge' . That really strucked me because it's true , 'who am I to judge' God doesn't count how many sins we have committed and He counts us as a sinner by whether we sin or not He doesn't count us more or less a sinner . And sometimes I may think like , 'walao how come this person so not spiritual one' I mean what gives us the right to judge this person ? I'm not perfect and neither is anyone except Jesus and God . And therefore only they have the right to judge . And one of my camp objective was to bond more with the lifegroup but I served quite a lot so I didn't manage to spend as much time as I thought I would but I want to thank God that today Emily , Baoer , Jasmine and Wenzhen took the effort to come down to fellowship and I also wanted to thank God that my mother allowed me to go . And although not many people came but I still got to fellowship with them and they really made my day by taking time out to come and fellowship together , I mean they can be doing something else right ? But they chose to come to fellowship together as a lifegroup . And I'm very blessed to have all these people around me , and that's why I wanted to start being the wall of affirmation . To not only my lifegroup but also others around me . Because I feel good being appreciated as an usher , I'm sure some of you can relate as ushers like sometimes we don't feel appreciated when we serve but I want to thank God for those who really say thank you it really makes a big difference and also that's how I want to appreciate others so that they continue to come and to feel God's love . And I want to thank God for Wenzhen , I noticed that she has that child-likeness and child like faith that God wants us to have . I use to think that she's just immature but now come to think of it , it's not immaturity but child likeness , and she's not the most talented person but she tries her best in everything she does . Example like she's not altheletic but she still enjoys herself during the game and really take part in it . And I don't know if she herself knows this but it's because of her spirit of excellence that God backs her up on everything . She does her best and it's actually having faith in God . Haing the faith that He'll do the rest when you do your best . And I think that she has shown me that , so what if I'm not talented in a lot of ways ? I can still try my best in everything that I do . It's because of this she has come such a long way . And you know like what pastor Jeff said last time he was a bad singer but now he's a better singer may not be the best singer but he's improved right ? And I believe that it's true as we progress on , our weakness become less of a weakness . So what if we're imperfect ? That's what we're here for , to strive to become perfect just like Jesus . It's easy to want to do something but actually doing it , it's harder than you know it . And I really don't want to live a 'sian' life any more because when we said yes to God to let Him take over everything and surredering our all to Him was the day that we start living life to the fullest and living life to the fullest is to live an exciting life and that another good thing about Wenzhen , she always does thing like as if she hasn't done it before . And that's what makes it so exciting for her and that's also how we should treat everyday , we don't know what's going to happen . Then , we should be excited for what God has install for us . And I'm trying to be able to feel His presence all the time because it's not that He's not there but it's just that we're not aware of Him and we shouldn't live life alone because God is there and we're living life with Him and we shouldn't just call Him when we need help but we should also celebrate with Him . 'Tong Gan Gong Ku' <--- that's how we should live life with God , the ups and also the downs . And God thinks of us greater than how we think of ourselves and God won't give us something that we can't overcome and when we ask God for something , we must be prepared that He's going to test us in other for us to slowly gain what we want . If we always just get what we want then there's no point right ? When we ask God for something He'll give us even more than of what we asked for . And I learn that in order to gain I have to give . Even if I only give 5 minutes of my time , that 5 minutes could make a big difference . For example I spent those 5 minutes telling someone my life testimony , it could have really touched their hearts and they could have wanted to accept Christ there and then . And so only when we offer something God will multiply it . And I forgotten who preached this larh but it's true without discipline then there's no way we can move on because no matter how talented we are we need to be dicipline when we do anything . If we don't put in effort how can we expect to see a breakthrough ? And I agree that this age is the best time to moud ourselves to become more disciplined . Especially since I want to chiong in my studies next year . Without disicpline I can't go far . And I also learnt that compassion is not the same as pitty when you have comppassion you do something about it . You take action and pitty is just a feeling . And we shouldn't just talk but no actions . Go the extra mile for people and it's better to be a blessing then to recieve one . And I also learnt about servant hood and that we're all saved to do God's will and we odd to rise up to serve others to bring them closer to God . And that we shouldn't limit ourselves because we must have faith that God has created us to do more than what we think we can do . Always take up the challenge when you have the chance because you may not be sure if it's God's calling but there's no harm right ? And we shouldn't just learn something and not apply it then there's no point in learnin it right ? And everyone has a talent and that talent is used to make a difference in the kingdom of God . And firstly we have to find that talent then after finding it we should invest in it so can we can excel in it to really serve in the kingdom of God . And on the leadership teaching I agree all of us are leaders it's just a matter of a good leader or not . And we should learn to become better leaders and to rise up and lead people . God can glorify in any cirumstances . And I was really reminded that the old has gone and the new has come . Like I'm not sure who said it but each day actually the cycle is still repeating itself . Each day the old has gone and the new has come . God is shaping lfe character of His people . And I agree with what Pastor Jeff said , you'll produce who you are . I think I'm becoming more like Wenzhen... The willingness of being a servant I think it' very important because it also links with humility . And we odd to be humble like Jesus . And God will only use you when you're ready so don't worry , the right time will come . God calls His people in many different ways , it doesn't have to be like really really a cool way when God calls you to fulfill what He wants you to do . And we need to guard our hearts especially for girls because Satan will strike us at our hearts because we're more emotional people than Guys that's why we should be strong and not let our emotions get the better of us . Don't be a shooting star but a shinning star , a shooting star you can only see it for a short while but a shinning star you can see forever whenever in the night . When you're serious show it and we should be serious when we want to give our all to God . And really having the burning desire for God . And you know we should really set our hearts right before God . Because if we seek God 99.99% it's not good enough that's why when you want something you'll have to want it 100% and when you ernestly seek God you'll find Him . On the second day after I got to go back to the lifegroup , I was really drained out by usher so I wanted to still be able to praise and worship God 100% and I just sang my heart out and God just suddenly strengthen me and refreshed me . I hope all of you really gained a lot from camp . (:

WOW ! Okay , so I had shepherding yesterday with Wenzhen and she has helped me finished my Maths homework , YAY so I don't need to care any more . So yeah , yesterday tuition was quite okay ? Got like a new guy in my Maths class ? And like I was totally blur then I think he laughed at me because I asked the teacher ,'how can 0.5 divide b 0.5 = 1 ?' Yeah so I pressed the caculator and yeah I'm wrong . So anyway , learnt about maps ? I guess not so hard , then after Maths , Wanxin , Clodia and I went to eat KFC then they wanted to eat there but I told them not enough time one . Then they say can one so ate there , guess what end up also late -.- . But we weren't the lastest . Uncle Eric taught us particles in matter which I've already learnt so kinda boring . But anyway , realised that I was serving usher this week which I totally forgot ? Then the housekeeping person ask me to go Istana Park for something ? Then don't know how am I suppose to go usher and housekeeping . So anyway , life has gone from hectic to even more hectic . We'll be like having lifegroup at my house later then after that suppose to have Coreteam but , as usual can't go . I got Chinese tuition anyway so yeah . Serving God has really becoming harder and harder as each day passes . But since when anyone said it's gonna be a piece of cake yeah ? I'm trying to get my contacts down ? I'm serving usher in camp(still haven't found red and green dress code) I also have housekeeping for camp hmmm.. And well on top of that I've got tuition four times a week and guitar lesson . 'WOOOOO' Yeah , I think sooner or later gonna loose my mind . But I think God is trying to tell me to jut trust in Him . Trust came out when I was doing quiet time , having shepherd and like in Devotion . And it's never easy to trust God but I'm really trying my best . Finacially , spiritually and studies , really have to rely on God's strength and keep reminding myself that He's in control . Still having that dreadful sore throat . GOSH and I just remembered I have to collect my pay at Parkmall during weekdays , why ? BECAUSE THEY DON'T OPEN ON WEEKENDS . Stupid people , and anyway , still don't know how am I suppose to pass to peopl invitation card for Christmas service . Hmmm.. 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH' Okay , felt so much better .
-Seeking for God's strength-

Okay , holidays are getting even more busy . Yesterday I was told that I'm in housekeeping for camp but I don't really think it makes a difference because as ushers we do like everything . We serve holy com , offering bags and housekeeping . But anyway , yesterday I went for guitar lesson after that went to school to buy books . Then I realise I forgot to bring the book list , I felt like an idiot but anyway , thank God because the auntie had a copy for me to tick . So anyway , after buying books went to my mother's work place for lunch . Ate pizza , awesome . Then we went to my auntie's house for a visit . Then before I left my auntie gave me $10 ! XD Really thank God because really going broke . And later I'll be meeting Wenzhen for informal and formal shepherding then after that going straight for tuition , two classes in one day . Maths 5-7 , 7.30-9.30 is Science . Wow... I don't know if my mind is able to think or my hand is able to write so much . But anyway , I'm still having that horrible sore throat , can you all pray for me ? Really appreciate it , thanks ! XD

Okay so I fasted until 2.30p.m. today and I'm so happy that I made it and didn't like break fast early . Anyway , still having sore throat , totally sucks . And like the workshop wasn't much as I thought it would be but yeah , Ming Jang explained roughly what we'll be doing and the colour code is green and red ._. very weird larh . And like we were told like some medic things just incase . And it suddenly occured to me , I have a lot of surface friendships and I totally hate it because like it doesn't mean anything , sure having friends is a good thing but..Having friends for the sake of having is another thing . And like... I feel like nothing changed as in my status in the social world.. I thought that I won't feel as if I'm an outcast but I realised that I still am . I don't fit in any where and every click I join I'm still the odd one out . I always feel so left out and I don't know why . And the 'thing' with one of my sheep-mate is still the same which really upsets me . And everything is happening so fast and I don't know how am I going to cope . But yeah , I know God already has a plan for me but I don't know , I'm just scared I guess.. And I've really got many things going through my mind and I feel as if my mind can't even think properly any more . I can't remember things that I've done or not like I know I need to do it but I can't remember if I had already done it . Wow.. I'm already stressing out before school even reopens .

Service was great , Gideon preached ! LOL ! And I managed to get Xing Er down for once ! Although she didn't accept Christ I'm very certain she will soon enough maybe it's not meant to be me that brings her to accept Christ but I'll still pray for her ! Anyway today slow as usual but I want to thank God for softening my parents' hearts , they let me go for the usher workshop !! It's like at night can , so really thank God . And yeah devotion is really helpful , it really opens up my eyes . Like seriously , learning about how I can trust God more and how much I really appreciate Him and love Him . It's really amazing how we never thought about ourselves and we think that we care about God but when it really comes to the question you find that it's not true . I really never thought about it that way and the booklet has really been a great help with my walk with God . Yeah.. Trying to get my heart prepared for really really busy december before school reopens . Hmm.. I still can't speak in tongues and I'm really wondering why larh huh... Maybe I'm still not as spiritually mature as I think I am ? Or just that God is testing me and He has a better plan for me(which He always does) . Well anyway , I actually played audition just now.. LOL I felt so life-less though.. Yeah can't wait for a brand new week with God XD !

One word to describe the day , 'AWESOME' . Morning woke up early to practise my guitar , thank God for Wenzhen cause she helped me by telling me how to get rid of my flam . After practising when I put back my guitar , never realised that I didn't put it properly and... The guitar fell and one of the strings broke , yeah I was pretty upset but I remeber I told God ,'Break my heart for what breaks yours' . The whole day , yeah things got really bad but not as bad as I thought it would have been . Had lots of fun with the lifegroup , it was sort of an outing lifegroup so was quite slack . After eating and slacking at Jasmine's house we went to wacth New Moon . Thank God that my mother allowed me to watch the movie . It was nice I guess . And the movie ended quite late so half way , me and Joanne prayed that God will make a way larh . And He really did . And I'm so happy because God says to always just trust in Him and yeah everything went well . Really felt that God was there with me it's just that I never noticed . And the Devotion thing it's really cool I think it really helps me to open my eyes to see what God sees , feel how God feels and think like how God thinks . And last night during quiet time really learnt a lot . I read Acts 10 and I learnt that God welcomes everyone and anyone , regardless of their past , if the person ernestly seeked Him and did what He would have wanted the person to do , God will really make a way . He'll never reject anyone who wants to have a relationship with Him and He'll answer your prayers it's just in the matter of time . Whether He gives you what you want or something even better . God really calls you and speaks to you on ordinary days you just have to really know what's happening around you and God really blesses all with the Holy Spirit who believe in Him and believe that Jesus was His perfect son . And I'm not really sure if God is hinting to me something about the Holy Spirit , the ability to be able to speak in tongues but I really hope He'll make it clear for me . Tomorrow I'm already starting tuition , abit scared and anxious but I know that God will be there to help me through . And going to have my bestfriends over at my house . XD

Did character study for Rahab and Paul(also known as Saul) . I was super encouraged when I heard about Rahab . Because okay , it'a really hard to explain if you haven't read the storey in the bible . But anyway , Rahab had such a strong faith and she never doubt in God for a second and she really trusted God 100% . She didn't let her social status or occupation or nationality get in her way of wanting to build a relationship with God . She didn't care how people looked at her and she had the courage to let go of her past and pursued a new faith . And faith it's a decision it's not a feeling or what and it wasn't easy for her . Because she had to risked her life and she did something when she believed in God .
James 2:26
As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.
After believing in God she risked her life for the Jew spies and she helped God's people . I really think that it's true because if we believe that God exsists but we don't show it then who is going to believe us ? God judges our whole life and not just one super big mistake/sin we committed and yes but that doesn't mean we go round killing people okay but instead don't take God's grace for granted but really cherish the chances He gives us . Repent and seek for forgiveness and if you see your friends sinning or just doing the wrong thing tell them nicely if they don't want to listen to you don't force them or stirr up a fight yeah you'll feel bad but you already tried warning them if they don't want to take the warning what can we do ? Just pray for them and ask God to forgive them . And we need to patient not everything comes in an instant and just really think about if we're trusting in God or not . And really the choice is yours .
Paul he wasn't always a believer/follower of christ . He was raised up as a Pharisee(is like having PHD of the bible and the Law) . And he used to persecute many christians and even went round finding people to imprison or kill . But one day he had an encouter with Jesus that changed his life and he changed many people's life . God called him to start his minitry to the Gentiles(Gentiles are people who aren't of Jewish origin) . He had to go through many trials because people put charges against him when he told them that the was going to preach the gospel to the Gentiles . He went through a lot of hardship I don't think many of us can manage to persevere and Paul was very determined he never gave up and he remembered why he was doing it . Always going back to the core , just like Nehemiah . Everyone was against him but he stood firm and wasn't shaken he was willing to be judged because he knew he did nothing wrong but I know I hate being accused for something I did not even do . And now of days my mother is getting more unhappy about the fact that I go out for too much church activities . But I'm trying not to be affected by it . He failed many times but he still continued on , he had that never dying faith which I really admire , most of us would really be affected if we keep failing and we won't be stronger and stronger each time we fail . But he got stronger and stronger , he was always remebering God and knew that God wants him to fail and we really need God's word to be encouraged and if you feel 'chui' just ask God for strength and have a motivation to keep going . And God is always with you doing the things you do , He's always there whether you know it or not . And you need to change yourself instead of changing the people around you , speak their love language . If your friends keep rejecting God then just keep trying to share your testimony . Don't just plunge into God but try talking it out smoothly . And just ask God for the wisdom and the chance to share to them . Never give up unless God says so . And God will bring people into your life to help you and encourage you . And are you still as excited or as passionate when you share about your life changing exprience ? And how do you apply what you've learnt ?
Recently a lot of rejection but I have a friend who really encouraged me because she said she wanted to know God . And I felt happy because she's my friend and she's going to be saved . And I explained to her and tried to push her to really want to come and know God and have a relationship with Him . And when people are curious keep talking to them about God maybe just maybe they'll want to accept Christ into their lives . Really think that I'm growing and yes it's not easy but since when it was ever easy ? Have lifegroup tomorrow need to plan out a skit .

I had WFL yesterday wanted to blog about it but my parents totally hogged the com huh . They booking airline tickets then don't know doing what so I didn't bother asking them to lent me use . So anyway , I went for the character study class cause Emily told me to . At first I didn't really want to go because I wanted to go CLC1 but I just told myself ,'God is in control and He knows what is best for me' so I just stuck to it and tried to really concentrate and open my ears and really tried to learn His word . And yeah , it was really interesting although the first preacher abit boring..(NO OFFENCE) But still I could really absorb almost everything . And we learnt about Daniel and Moses . Daniel is known for his unswering commitment to God and his uncompromising attitude is a testimony of a principled man and when I was learning about him , I felt so amazed because he really put in everything to serve God but not only God but kings of Babylon . And he really lived life the way Gods wants any of us to live . God has His principles and values too so we need to do things according to those principles and values . And in order to do that we need to be willing to be tested . And you know , Daniel never took the royal food or presents . He still continued to serve the kings never the less . And he was firm on his decisions and he never let anything get to him . And I really admired him in this aspect . He followed God's wills and God favoured him . God saved him from being killed and God used his life to influence a whole kingdom . And I think it's so cool to be able to influence one whole kingdom , I can barely influence one person . And he really setted hi heart heart right before God and I don't think it's that easy to be lik him . He doesn't need rewards or anything but he still does what people ask him to do . Once or twice your friend asks u for a favour and you thinks it's okay right ? And what if that friend is not even close to you but just always comes to you for help ? I think you'll totally just tell her to go find someone else right ? But Daniel wasn't like that , although he was forgotten , he still came back to help the second king when the king called him back . And I really think that we should be the 'bigger person' in life , to always just give in to others although yes it's not easy . But was it easy for God to send His son down to die on the cross for us ? No it wasn't , and Daniel always gave credit to God , he never took God's glory but instead told people about Him and when he's reawrded he shares his rewards with his fellow brothers and sisters of christ . And Daniel never lost faith in God , daniel was to be put to death twice but he still never died . And I believe God will always help us but if we were meant to go then we will go . And Daniel influenced four kings in his life and made a difference to many who lived in those times and he's not the only who can be a living testimony . I believe all of us can be a living testimony yeah your friends won't believe God exsist but they can't deny the fact that you've changed so much since you came to know Christ right ? God will protect us and when we obey Him , He'll bless us more and we don't have to be the one to be angry about those who sinned against us because God will punish them for their sinns and always thank God for everything . And we should always do something with what God has blessed us with , so really pay attention because the chance may be just there infornt of you . But Moses was really different , He was a real leader in the context that he doesn't try to cover up his mistakes or his weaknesses and he stuggled with many things that we also face . And God called him on an odrinary day , it doesn't have to be a out-stading day when God speaks to us . And I believe that's really true because I had my own 'burning bush' exprience and it was really a big breakthrough for me . Moses always 'tai-chi' with God , he always has 'what if' or 'but' he never had faith and confidence . And God will always be there to back you up to send people to help you . So when things happen just stop , pray and God is speaking . Be curious and ask questions it's not going to kill you if you don't know somethings . Open your eyes and be aware of your surroundings and really just lead God do His work . When God wants you to do something in His name , He'll be doing it with you and He'll help you and yeah sometimes you don't know if it's really God's will but just do it because if may be for the better or the worst but God already knew that it was going to happen and it happened for a reason just whether you see it or not . And if you think that you don't know everything about God and you want to share your testimony about Him and when your friends ask just tell them everything that you know because it'll be enough because no one knows everything about God . And seek God to help you in areas that you always comprimise with Him about thinking that it's okay or at least I'm not that bad ? You're just trying to make yourself feel better . An trust me just own up and do what God wants you to do and don't try to bargin it's not going to work you know . And Moses was never angry at God , he was never able to enter the promise land but he still continued to serve God and he allowed God to punish him and let Him do His work . And God works in many ways not just one so don't doubt that the new way doesn't work but just trust in Him . And Moses had a big heart , he prayed for the people when they were testing God and He sometimes did things out of frustration and we do that too but we'll regret it so try to just relax and do what you think is right . And when you feel sian or tired just always remember why you're doing it and who you're doing it for and ask God for strength to continue on . Don't let your weaknesses come in the way of fulfilling your responsibility and don't be so defensive because sometimes it's just best to keep your mouth shut . And don't be distracted by anything or anyone but stand firm on your princples and being humble is a key aspect and to be humble it's just to think of yourself no more or no less than who you are . Accept feedback and really think about it and ask God what to do . And failing it's a part of learning so we don't repeat our mistakes and we learn how to overcome them so don't be disapointed at yourself and emo okay ! Obey God under any circumstances . Okay I think I have really said enough . Can't wait for the next WFL tomorrow and lifegroup outing ! XD