Okay so I fasted until 2.30p.m. today and I'm so happy that I made it and didn't like break fast early . Anyway , still having sore throat , totally sucks . And like the workshop wasn't much as I thought it would be but yeah , Ming Jang explained roughly what we'll be doing and the colour code is green and red ._. very weird larh . And like we were told like some medic things just incase . And it suddenly occured to me , I have a lot of surface friendships and I totally hate it because like it doesn't mean anything , sure having friends is a good thing but..Having friends for the sake of having is another thing . And like... I feel like nothing changed as in my status in the social world.. I thought that I won't feel as if I'm an outcast but I realised that I still am . I don't fit in any where and every click I join I'm still the odd one out . I always feel so left out and I don't know why . And the 'thing' with one of my sheep-mate is still the same which really upsets me . And everything is happening so fast and I don't know how am I going to cope . But yeah , I know God already has a plan for me but I don't know , I'm just scared I guess.. And I've really got many things going through my mind and I feel as if my mind can't even think properly any more . I can't remember things that I've done or not like I know I need to do it but I can't remember if I had already done it . Wow.. I'm already stressing out before school even reopens .
Fiona praised Jesus at 5:15 AM
PROFILE;
Fiona Krissie Teh
Deyi secondary School
6th June 1996
Child of God
Hope Church(Youth)
fcyf1996@hotmail.com(MSN/Facebook)
The Girl;
I love God,my family,friends & everyone else .
I'm currently serving in the usher ministry .
My shepherd is Chua Wenzhen Joy .
My care group is NEA1 .
I'm trying to learn the guitar .
My cca is drama .
Life Transformation;
Before I knew God , I was a petty,
Impatient,spoiled,ungrateful,unreasonable,ah lian wanna-be.
I had no dreams , no idea where I was heading and no purpose.
But I didn't want to be alive for no reason.
I've always thought that I was useless.
It would have been better that I wasn't alive.
But I didn't want to die just yet.
Because I knew that life was precious.
I continued to search for meaning,purpose and reasons.
And last christmas I was invited to Yhope.
I grew up in a catholic school.
I knew God then but I never had a relationship with Him.
At that time , my results were already out and my school was already chosen.
I was going to Deyi.
At first I wasn't really committed to God.
And I had some parental objection.
But Wenzhen was assigned to be my shepherd.
She helped me to overcome my objection and she encouraged me to be more committed.
And she never gave up on me , she is one of the reasons why I've changed so much.
Yes she's naggy but it's really great to have a shepherd like her.
And I thought of it , somehow everything linked.
I never studied for PSLE but I got 220.
I was never accepted in Holy Innocent.
But in Deyi.
My god sister asked me to come but she never made it in.
At first it was hard.
But I got used to it.
Everything made sense to me.
Why I scored how much I scored.
Why I came Deyi.
Why my mother allowed me to go out that day.
If I hadn't gone out with my friends.
I would have never met Hui Xuan,Chantel or Grace they all.
I would have not converted.
And I wouldn't have what I have today.
Deuteronomy 4:29
But if from there you
Seek the LORD your God,
You will find him if you
Look for Him with all your heart
And will all your soul.
I searched for God.
And He made a way for me.
He had a better plan for me.
It was just the beginning of a new found life.
I want to dedicate this blog to God.
All of you who hasn't known God yet.
I really encourage you to do so.
It will really be the best decision you ever make.
He will never leave nor forsake you.
He will never short change you.
He will never fail you.
Psalm 118:1
Give thanks to the Lord,
for He is good;
His Love endures forever.
