I've found a friend who died for me

Okay , so one of my resolutions was to manage my time better , so I 'made' a planner . Of course I can't make one , I'm short of money so I just wrapped an A4 size single line book , decorate it and , there it's my new planner . It's helping yeah , but not helping me to remember what I have to bring and what I need to buy . So , only can count on God for that . Anyway , started this week quite alright , things went smoothly . And I guess my walk with God is moving , not say very fast but not saying it's not moving at all . Anyway , since most of the subject teachers never thought us before , I thought I'll have a good first impression . So yeah , trying to suck up and get on their 'Good List' . Normilla MIA , don't know where she go so I'm happy , till she comes back . I realised my class is getting more 'Guai' , seiously , doing work when teacher is not around , really paying more attention and doing homework . It's nice , cause , the environment you study in really affects you . And I still need to work on my temper , really really get piss off easily , especially now because , well , not enough sleep, for me = CHAOS , I get cranky like in a slipt second . I may not be able to attend service this Sunday , sad , cause I have tuition , totally forgot ): !! How I wish one day has more hours so that I can do more things... I seriously feel I'm getting weaker and faker . Weaker in the sense that , I get tired easily and feel like giving up more easily , faker in the sense , I force out smiles , I force out words that I don't even mean(words of encouragement). It just doesn't seem like it's coming from the heart , maybe that's why people don't take it for real and don't get spured on by my words , I guess they can feel the 'fake-ness' of it . It's a suckish feeling you know and I just don't know what's happening . I so feel like dye-ing my hair can !!(Totally random) Sian , I so have to WAIT for June holidays and I may not even be able to dye lor . If I don't improve enough to my standards that my parents want me to have , they won't let me dye . And my bag is getting too small either that or my things are getting more and getting bigger . I hope my bag breaks so I can buy a new one but at the same time not really , cause I did a rough calculation of how much money I spend per month , like on tuition , guitar lesson , conssesion and my allowence and so much more . I feel like I'm seriously wasting so much money . *Sigh* I'm getting like lots of mood swings , I think my normal 'me' is back , the 'me' that didn't know God yet , the 'me' that is even so much more emotional , the 'me' that is way more spoiled and just that 'me' sucks . I myself didn't like the 'me' , I actually look down on the 'me' and hate 'her' . I guess life even with God can't be perfect but that's why we have Jesus , to guide us to help us achieve a perfect life .
Goal : Fast from guys;